The Teacher

At the beginning of this semester, my acting teacher, Susan asked me, “What do you want to learn?” I freaked out a little. What do you mean? I learn what you tell me to learn. You give information and I retain it. That’s how it’s supposed to be, right?

I had never been asked this question before. Which now that I’ve thought about it, seems pretty weird. Susan said that in our class, she is working for us and we are working for ourselves. Here came the lightbulb moment. I have always done my classes in attempt to make my teacher proud, to give my teacher what he or she wants. But that is so wrong!! I am here for me; no one else. This is my education and who I want to be. I will get out of these experiences what I put into each of them. So, I told Susan what I want.

I want…

• the tools to make me one of the greats.
• to have an effect on others.
• to make a mark on this trade.
• to reach those crazy heights, the seemingly impossible goals.
• to bring out the best in me.

Spice Girls

Remember when we used to dress up like them? I was Ginger, you were Baby. I always wanted to be Baby, but you said that my hair was too red and your hair was perfect blonde. Various friends would come over and be the other girls, though we never had a Scary. We had the perfect costumes from out of our dress up box. We knew every word and every dance move. After doing every song on the CD, we would go watch Spice World in our costumes with our Spice Girl Barbie Dolls in hand, and perform with them during all the songs. This happened at least twice a week… I miss those days. Let’s do this again.

Skinny Bitch is a Bitch

I just finished reading Skinny Bitch. They’re bitches. They’re making me vegan and I’m a picky eater. I’m not gonna like vegan foods. I just tried soy milk in my cereal. It was gross. It’s like, sweet. I do not recommend. Besides soy stuff, Rory and Kim recommend eating a lot of nuts, seeds, vegetables, fruits, and whole grains. My taste buds are bored just thinking about it. But besides that, I actually really enjoyed the book. It gave me knowledge of many problems in my diet that I was unaware of and told me about the horrible treatment of animals in slaughter houses. I recommend people to check out goveg.com. It’s a great website that talks about vegetarianism and shows what really happens to animals in slaughter houses.

Watch this video and others from the website…

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via Meat.org.

The New Year

So. 2010. Weird. It’s been a decade since the millennium began. I remember where I was, what I did, what I was wearing… and that was ten years ago. My New Year’s resolution for 2000 was to make more friends (I had just moved to a new state) and to stop wearing glasses. I knew I wasn’t able to get contacts until I entered middle school, but I resolved to annoy my parents until they let me. No, it didn’t work.

I’ve never really made very serious resolutions and have never stuck to them or filled any out. This year I was thinking making some goals would be really helpful to me however. So here are my 2010 Resolutions:

1. Work harder in my classes- pay attention, do the homework and don’t procrastinate.
2. Learn how to read music and play the piano- I want to be able to write music.
3. Keep a journal- I don’t let any of my thoughts or feelings out of my head so they all store there and after a while it gets to be too much. I have to create some more space up there.
4. Take better care of my voice- I’m sick of always having a sore throat.
5. Be more active- My dance classes will help, but on the days I don’t have dance I want to start going to the gym.
6. Rebuild, recover confidence and knowledge of my self that I have lost.
7. Continue to learn and grow
8. Gain more independence and become comfortable with alone time.
9. Knowledge myself in every musical and play and actor there is out there.
10. Take in everything possible that is applicable to my art form.
11. Discover who I am.

Found This

cool art!

http://www.sanbasestudio.com/free.htm

My First Post

I don’t know how to blog. But I’m gonna try anyway.

I guess I should start off by talking about me?

My name isn’t Coley. My name is Caitlin. But my middle name is Collette, which I like a lot better. Caitlin’s too common. My grandma’s name is Collette. People have always called her Collie, pronounced co-lee. But that looks like it’s pronounced like the type of dog, collie. So I like to spell it “Coley.” It makes more sense.

I actually really don’t like my first name at all. I feel no connection to it. I always ask people to think of a nickname for me. What name fits me best? I know it’s not Caitlin. But I can’t think of what it would be, and neither can anyone else. When I think to myself, I call myself Coley. So, because this blog is to me, about me, it’s from Coley.

Mash Up

This is really cool

I Stole This

I’m doing this survey because I don’t sleep anymore. I stole it from my friend Mark…. who stole it from our friend Alexandra.

My name is: Caitlin

Birthday: November 28th

Eye Color: blue

This morning I was: sleeping. i didn’t get up til the afternoon. it was dreadful.

I’m afraid of: disappointing/upsetting people. failure.

I dream about: random things.. i have a few reoccurring dreams that mostly involve my family and i being in trouble and me getting out but i always wake up before i get the chance to save them. theres also another reoccurring one where i can’t see anything but someones whispering my name and they keep getting louder and stronger and it feels like books are being piled on my chest.. it’s creepy.

Last time I cried: ummm a few weeks ago maybe

The worst habit I have: probably overanalyzing stuff.

I’m in a good mood when: I’m surrounded by people i love. Or when the majority of things in my life are going right.

To summarize myself in three words: unsure. ambitious. caring.

Who…

Makes you laugh the most: my best friend Ruby

Makes you smile: my dog. my family. my friends. random nice things.

Is easiest to talk to: A few from a group of my guy friends. I know they’re not judging and they always respond in the best way imaginable. and they really want to hear what i have to say.

Do you miss the most: The people I love that I haven’t spoken to in long periods of time. The periods of time are variables though. To some people I may miss them if I haven’t spoken to them in a few days, others a few years, others a month or so. I especially miss the people I will never see again

Shares a brain with you: i dunno. i havent really come across anyone who thinks like me much.

Was your first friend: A girl named Julia.

Inspires you: So many people. People who have done great things. People who think deeply and independently. Individuals. People who have overcome.

Was the last person you said “I love you” to: probably Ruby or maybe Paige and JR

Is your best friend: I have a lot. Ruby, Mark, Ali, Allie, J.R., Paige, Christian, Aaron, Nate…. too many to name. Basically, if you consider yourself one of my good friends, I most likely consider you my best friend. I’m just gonna say that instead of naming everyone.

Is my last text message from: Cam… another best friend.

Do you look forward to seeing soon: My sister. She gets back from Ireland Dec. 31st.

What…

Is on your bedroom walls: At home, where I am now, i have peace sign stickers, a chain of actors thing my aunt made me, a budweiser surfboard, a hula picture, a tv, a shelf with pictures and other nice stuff, a piece of art my aunt made for me when I was born, a bulliten board, a painting I did, a clock, and then one of my walls my mom decorated with a bunch of awards and frames of shows I’ve been in. and a puffin picture. At school, I have a Beatles poster, a couple kissing picture, the andy warhol marilyn monroe picture, a van gogh piece, a monet piece, another beatles picture, a john lennon poster, a joe jonas poster, a joe jonas plate, a bullitin board with pictures and cards people have given me, an arrested development poster…. i’m sure theres more stuff, can’t think of it.

Do you wish you were doing instead: I’m content.

Makes you different: Lots of things

Drink do you prefer: Water

Annoys me the most: Hateful people

Color are your nails: They’re pretty I painted them last night (: They’re turquoise with gold tips and then a line of black between the gold and turquoise. As my dad pointed out, jacksonville jaguar colors.

Bracelets are you wearing: two that I made, one rasta colors and one having all of my favorite colors in it, and my friendship bracelet with allie

Kind of pizza do you prefer: quality ny pizza…. good, soft crust is necessary.

Do you look forward to: sophomore year.

I…

I want: a journal. i feel like writing.

I wish: for my dreams to come true.

I love: music. when people talk/think really deep. my friends. dogs. especially my dog. my family. lady gaga.

I miss: right now, school. and my grandpas

I fear: the future

I hear: Ruby

I have: a light on in my room. I’m already under the covers, I forgot to turn it off. I’m not getting up again.

I smell: my bed

I care about: people

I pray: everything will work out how it should. and i won’t mess up how it should be.

I wonder: what will happen

note to self: stop thinking, start living.